The Word's intentions are scrutable 3/4
"What are you doing here?"
"We came to the advertised event."
"I announced that as a joke. Sad to see so many people misunderstood."
"But here we are. We're here for the esoteric course we read about in the ad."
"You want to learn esotericism?"
"Yes."
"How serious is this commitment?"
"We think it's very serious, that's why we're here."
"I see. That advertisement was a joke, which you would have understood if you had understood what was written above it."
"We certainly understood the ad."
"So you are very serious about wanting to learn esotericism."
"That's right!"
"When was this determination born?"
"When we read the advertisement. It really piqued our interest."
"I see. Then the best thing is for everyone to go home, forget about it and get on with your lives."
"We certainly don't accept that. Funny or not, we'd like to learn esotericism from you."
"You can only learn esotericism at home, alone. Someday, when you're ready."
"We'd like it here and now."
"If the decision has been made now, it means that the preparation has started now. When you are beyond that, you cannot avoid learning esotericism.
"Is that what happened to you?"
"Yes."
"What did your preparation look like?"
"I went on with my life and only afterwards, from a higher perspective, I realized that it was already the preparation. And even before that, if you can be flexible with time."
"How long was it between your decision and the beginning of your study of esotericism?"
"About 10 years."
"Sorry, but we don't feel like waiting ten years for that."
"What do you mean by esotericism?"
"We want to be more validated in life, let's say we have magical powers."
"That's not surprising, because when I think about it, the vast majority of people imagine it the same way."
"Why? Isn't it?"
"Esotericism means Inner World. The reason I can't teach you is because what you find in your own inner world is for you and you alone to know. For esotericism can only be learned in the flesh by becoming a master of yourself. It takes who knows how many years to acquire the maturity to do this."
"I have an idea. Teach us all you can about it and then when we are mature enough to do it, we will remember it."
"What I can teach you about it would be more like I'll lead you to the gate and give you some useful advice. But I would do that just for fun, because I have developed a system that is good for the teachings to come to you on their own and you don't need me."
"Where do they come from?"
"They appear in your head. At some point, when you have managed to calm yourself down enough to be able to hear them."
"I feel quiet even now."
"Do you work somewhere?"
"Yes, I have a good job with a good salary. If money were the problem, it's not a problem for me, but I can't speak for the others."
"We haven't got to the punch line yet."
"I'm not talking about the joke, I'm talking about the fact that we're willing to pay you a lot for it."
"If you pay me a lot for this, it is a joke to me. But don't worry, because I take every joke very seriously, if I take it, we'll dive headfirst into the mysteries of esotericism. But for the moment I don't see the joke in it, because you all seem rather boring."
"Is money just a joke to you?"
"Woody Alien once said that money is better than poverty, if only for financial reasons. But to answer your question, you definitely have to put the importance of money right in yourself, because you only have to go 100km to be worth nothing. Above."
"What does order in the mind mean here?"
"When you are hit with that first rise in viewpoint and you are overwhelmed with information, you realise that the world is much more than you thought it was. Contexts open up to you in which the importance of money disappears. You need to get your head in order before you can deal with this situation. If you have so much money, you should start saving it, because if you are really serious about it, you can only do it at home, alone and not at work. Of course, I have seen someone who has been able to grow while working, but has added an extra achievement that few people have. It's really all up to you, depending on your opportunities and your commitments."
"How do you feel about money?"
"I see it as an object of use and not of worship. The interesting thing about money is that it can bring together very different things in the form of a number, what we call value. But it is only useful to encounter it above a certain level of development, otherwise you can easily be led astray by the temptation of the freedom it offers or the power it gives you over others. It can only be put at the service of progress if you become worthy of it, otherwise you will be caught up in the destructive power of the profit motive."
"Okay, I get it, but I want to get back to esotericism."
"I think you understand something, but you will only really understand it when it is full of meaning. It's just like clichés. You must know something else about esotericism. It's everywhere, but because it's hidden, it's very hard to see. We're already in it so you brought up the subject of money and we're touching on it through that."
"Is it possible for you to start the education today and we will come every weekend?"
"It would be possible for me to start the training and then you will come next time in a few months."
"Why?"
"When I have to apply layers of paint to the walls of a house, I have to wait for the previous layer to dry."
"There's nothing to dry yet."
"Do you think the world is just the people and objects around you? The world is much more than meets the eye."
"What does that mean?"
"It means that you get time to think about it all and of course I get time to think about it all. I need some motivation."
"Is money not motivation enough for you? Then let's have more money."
"Once some scientists did an interesting experiment with a chimpanzee. They gave him a brush, canvas and paint. They showed him how to paint. The chimpanzee happily threw himself into his creations and started painting pictures. After a while, he got a banana for every picture he made. The chimp soon realised that the banana was for the pictures. Then he started painting for the banana. The pictures were taken in a rush, and the chimpanzee forgot the joy and excitement of painting. If I were to start teaching you, it would not be for the money at all and at the moment I don't see the joy and excitement that would be the real motivation for me. The money would just make me smash the work I would be doing listlessly. But that's not what life is about."
"What is life about? What is the meaning of life then?"
"I've already mentioned the system I've developed. It's based on four main areas and I realised that these four areas are actually the meaning of life. Education-Learning, Healing-Cure, Experience-Adventure and Exploration-Development."
"Then here is the answer. You educate us and we learn."
"I have already solved this for those who can reach it with their consciousness and by being able to do so, they have also become worthy of it. You would rather be the experience, but I don't really see the adventure in that yet."
"You know what? I'll pay you enough to buy yourself whatever experience you want out of it."
"What does the universe say to that? Take it, because you don't know what the source is, and you don't know what you're going to need it for. There is a saying that money has no smell. But the one who gives it does. Come back in two months and you'll have your answer. Today's session was free."
Lesson | 2 | lecke
"Where is the other half of the team?"
"It's a mixed picture. There were some who didn't take you seriously at all and are looking elsewhere for a master, some who lost interest and some who took what you said the last time very seriously."
"What you should understand is that it is not easy to find the ideal path, because it takes the courage to let go of what is in front of your eyes and keep exploring into the unknown. In that sense, they have all made the right choice. But I found another misunderstanding, because I am not a master."
"Then what are you?"
"If I am a master, I can only be a master of myself. It's no different for you. If I can teach you anything, it's how to be your own master. Which is nothing but a kind of mentality."
"Will you teach us mentality?"
"There are no templates here, but unexpected situations often arise and it is worth reacting to them in the right way. I have no idea yet whether this can be taught at all, but we will find out."
"How many disciples have you had?"
"I have had people come to me, but I don't know if I can call them disciples."
"What did you teach them?"
"They could see what I was doing and I answered their questions if they had any."
"What was the teaching in that?"
"I showed them everything, but they only got what they understood from it."
"How did they get there?"
"Good question. They found me on the internet and they fit the parameters, otherwise they wouldn't have found me or been able to meet me in person. There was no specific teaching really, because I was doing what I do and they could watch me meditate."
"Hehe, good joke."
"Listen, if I figure out that all this education here with you is going to be nothing but watching movies and TV shows all the time, that could be extremely serious training. Although it won't look like it. But knowledge may come to you in the invisible world that will later, at the right time, transform you to the level of consciousness. So you can watch movies, you can keep quiet all the time. But I think it is best if I answer your questions so that you have the experience of esoteric education as you understand it."
"For these energies to transmit this invisible knowledge, do you need people to be around you?"
"Not at all. It requires a firm resolve to always have someone thinking about it or thinking about me. Such things open up channels of consciousness to the right places. The spiritual world is like the internet, where your consciousness is the browser. Since the internet available in the real world only goes back a few decades, I don't think many masters have seen the significance of it, but I started doing it at the right time for it to become natural for me."
"But it also appeared in the masters. What makes you think they don't use it?"
"Maybe they use it, but few must have noticed that it's a mirror of the net of consciousness. The other thing is that the masters are usually representatives of some celestial hierarchy who are certainly not familiar with the internet. But I developed my own techniques and since the internet exploded when I started meditating, I integrated it into my repertoire."
"Give me an example."
"One way is to go up, travel the world and stand in front of crowds to channel certain energies that the Earth and humanity desperately need. The other way is to [create websites](https://hstore.elmenypark.com] that anyone can access 24 hours a day and get the same result. Of course, that took a lot of work to get the framework, the permissions system and the access controls in place, not to mention how one can draw that kind of energy for oneself."
"What is the difficulty?"
"You are an individual who is not easy to identify in a collective environment. In addition, these energies come from much higher up and although they use existing channels, they operate on fundamentally different frequencies."
"What is your hierarchy?"
"It is difficult to answer this briefly because I am and have been doing several tasks at the same time. Some of them I did not check who they were, I just corrected the errors. In other words, if someone is working with them, they can continue to do their own task, which I do not see. There was I started my own task, which anyone can join. This has a mixed structure now, i.e. it can affect task completion."
"As I look at it, these are pictures. Do you just have to look at them?"
"Yes. The human eye port is used to transmit the data. They have another mode if you focus your eyes behind the images. Then you get to the holographic level, where you have a different depth of functionality programmed into the images."
"I'm sure there would be people you'd have to convince that these work."
"I don't think I'm trying to convince anybody. They can convince themselves if they start using them."
"I think they should be convinced that they are using them."
"It's not important to me, it's important to them. But if your question was about how it works, I have a good example. Do you listen to music on your phone?"
"Of course."
"Do you have good music?"
"Yes. I really like listening to them, they put me in a great mood."
"Do they make you feel emotional?"
"Some of them not so much, but some of them do."
"But the ones you listen to are in .mp3 format. They are nothing but digital 1s and 0s. Do you think emotions can be mapped to these?"
"Wow, I hadn't even thought about that."
"Well, I have. I've come to the conclusion that there must be a holographic container that is connected to physical objects and that all objects have them that store this information. It also turns out that the intangible things have it too, like a file. My holoinstall images also use this holographic container, and they do so consciously."
"What is it? Magic?"
"More like science. It's way before science, though, so everyone sees it as magic."
"What's your biggest development?"
"A holo operating system capable of 3D projection running on a consciousness network, which all spiritualists see as gods. But I'll be satisfied with Satan."
"Why?"
"Deity is always a problem, but in this belief system Satan has the most liberating role. Which suits me just fine."
"But that way, people will reject you."
"Even better. I like to work alone. Otherwise, I'd have to stop dealing with a bunch of hypocritical assholes, which is extremely far from my Aquarian self."
"But we wouldn't want to learn esotericism from Satan, if we could."
"It's just a role. To me, it's like being a surgeon among internists."
"But not to the masses."
"The ones I'd like to keep away from."
"If that's the case, I'm not sure we'll be so many here next time."
"Then you're beginning to understand. In two months, we'll know how many of you will be here."
Lesson | 3 | lecke
"This is still a lot."
"And half of them gone again."
"The ones who have gone so far have either understood what I was talking about, or realised that it's not for them, or realised that I'm not for them."
"The ones I know are all asking what happened here."
"Keep it that way. It might be better for them."
"I'm not on the same level as you. I can't even answer their questions."
"I have some teaching experience from way back. Of course, I didn't follow the traditional path there either, but started experimenting."
"What did you teach?"
"Computer IT back in the days when PCs were running DOS and there weren't really computers anywhere. You had to start Windows 3.1 by typing "win" at the command line. Of course, if I remember correctly, it was a long time ago, you may have had to type ".exe" afterwards."
"That must have been a long time ago."
"Yes, it was in the '90s."
"How old are you?"
"I started meditating seriously at 33, now I'm 54. I've hardly left my apartment since then because I'm doing it 0-24."
"So is this another one of those barely moving out things that you're doing here with us?"
"No, it's a reality simulation. I'm actually sitting at home and what we're talking about appears as an extract on a website."
"How is that a simulation? I've been living in this reality for as long as I can remember."
"In essence, all reality is a simulation. And when you live in 3D, you don't notice any changes anyway, because all changes are embedded in your past. There are some good series that explain it quite well in parts. It's worth watching the Star Trek and Stargate series. Take your time, it's not an idle pastime at all, nor is sitting at home feeling improductive."
"What was the world like before PCs?"
"There were no mobile phones, or there were, they just weren't as widespread. There was no Facebook, there was no Instagram, which is unthinkable in today's world, that was everyday life then. But I had a ZX-Spectrum, I read a lot, played football, tennis and socialised with friends. It was a different life, but you can't say for sure whether it was better or not. I think people are not using them sensibly and there is already magic on these platforms, often in a state-organised form. Once a journalist did an experiment where she deleted a bunch of people from her Facebook and felt a great sense of relief afterwards. I don't even use Facebook, and Twitter only until Musk took it over."
"If you could go back in time, would you go back to a world like that?"
"Even you could go back, because there are points in time that grow into separate worlds. Every decade from the '60s onwards has such a source-world save point, from which parallel realities open up until the 2010s. As well as, by popular demand, one for the 1950s and 2020s."
"At whose request?"
"These two decades were an experiment in what you call angelic interventions, the first of which I think was botched and the second of which may reveal how much was learned."
"This is science fiction to me. I would rather return to why it would be better for those who hear what is said here from me to hear it from you."
"Then I will return to my educational experience. I've found that it's much more effective to have... and don't get me wrong, I don't mean to offend you when one idiot explains it to another. I could stand in front of the blackboard for hours and explain, but it didn't measure up when one understood and quickly explained to the others."
"What could be the reason for this?"
"I think there were two main reasons. One was the presumption that I was the high-knowledge teacher and they were the low-knowledge learners, and these imaginary roles came into play. The other is that once I said it and left the room, the collective environment collapsed and gave way to individuals who were not constrained by the aforementioned roles because I was not in the room. When the first one did it successfully, the others turned to him with an interest that I could only have evoked with extreme performer attitude in front of the board. Moreover, a kind of rivalry was set in motion here, that if that idiot could do it, I should be able to do it, because it can't happen that he can use it and I can't. They had a totally different attitude to the new information and when I went back to the room half an hour later, everyone was sitting in front of their computers using it. Of course, I had an advantage here because of the games programs, but a games program had to be started up just like a word processor. I also drew on my own experience when I made it my educational goal to get people to like computers, because I was thinking of the future and not the present, where no one had one at home or at work. I realised this when I sat back down in front of my computer after a summer holiday before work and completely forgot how to use it. Of course, these experiments were not well welcomed by the formal collegial environment, but it has accompanied me throughout all aspects of my life since then, including spiritualism."
"So this is not professionally accepted esoteric education?"
"Not even close. Moreover, as I have never taught esotericism to people like this, I am improvising here and now, i.e. experimenting on you."
"You said there is no such thing as esoteric education."
"It doesn't, but in your minds it does. In it I can find the adventure and challenge I seek, everyone benefits."
"Were you cool in school or a nerd?"
"Cool in the eyes of nerds, nerd in the eyes of cool. It must have been because I never divided the world in that way and in fact I gave a big shit, because people are more diverse than that. So if a cool guy looked at me, he must have seen me as a nerd, and if a nerd, he must have seen me as a cool guy. I never joined the cool crowd, I preferred to be friends with the intelligent people. It's interesting to note that the cool kids at school didn't have great careers in life, unlike the nerds. Maybe that's the trouble with today's world, that many nerds seek to compensate for their childhood grievances in power."
"Have you made mistakes?"
"It's very difficult to answer that, because mistakes are viewed very differently by the rational mind of the present than by the higher perspective of looking from the future to the past. If you ask the rational mind of the present, my life has been full of mistakes. But if those mistakes had not occurred, I would not be here today."
"Where would you be?"
"I think I'd be a divorced father working multiple jobs to pay child support. While I could be more optimistic, I chose realism, knowing the forces that have moved to thwart my goals."
"Where are these forces?"
"Above me and below me at the same time. And in a bunch of parallel realities I've managed to lure them into. I used to listen to them communicating with each other."
"So we're in danger?"
"No greater danger than the possibility of an occupation attack. But it'll take a year and a half to carry it out, and that's not how long this education will last."
"Can it be faster?"
"I don't know, they're evolving and so am I. It's an old game that new players might get into as they come across my website and they'll get a sense of what they're reading."
"How do you live like that?"
"If you meditate, you're home alone anyway. I have already figured out spiritual close combat and have developed things for it. It's not for everyone, but with enough determination you can go forward."
"If we are occupied, what happens?"
"You can observe this spiritual melee."
"What does this melee mean?"
"We're buddies in appearance, but there's a battle of minds in the invisible channels."
"You're scaring us."
"But in everyday life, it's happening at the level of the average person, but there, collective general intentions are clashing. Here it is targeted at the level of the individual, but the point is the same."
"If there's such a thing as hand-to-hand combat, is there also such a thing as long-distance combat?"
"This topic is premature for you."
"You said that there are these invisible strands of energy. Is combat also taking place on these?"
"Let's call it a game."
"What's the difference?"
"If you call it fighting, you could die. Although it's hard to talk about that until we get to the death search. But the short of it is that death does not exist on a collective level, only from the perspective of individuals. But since there are parallel realities, it's not so obvious. But you can pull someone out of certain tracks, or realities, in this way."
"How many do you think we will have next time?"
"I don't look at how many of you will be here next time, because I have a philosophy, without which there is no problem solving. If any of you are here, it will be this, if not, it will be that."
"Can you tell us something that might give us a clue so that we don't leave scared?"
"The world is a holographic video game that we live and play in. An adventure game where everything depends on what you know and believe about the world. It's a game that can be controlled by your mind, but it's also a game where the hologram tries to create your beliefs for you. What you believe is what you have. Even if others don't, and that will continue until changes in perspective equalize that belief."
"Can you give an example of this?"
"For many people I will be a Satan, which I am prepared for. But it can't last forever. The solution is likely to be for people to let go of the misguided beliefs surrounding this figure and the concept will take on a new meaning. If that doesn't work, then the realities will split and/or I will find out that I really am what they think I am. In this case, I continue to live in a completely different role in their realities, but that doesn't mean I don't continue to live in mine doing my own tasks. At the moment, this is not a problem because I have not met anyone, so I can convey everyone's beliefs even if it is negative and even if it is positive. But there will come a time when beliefs meet and that's when the amazing flexibility of the hologram comes in handy, but in what form it will manifest itself, no one knows in advance."
"So it's up to me what scares me?"
"It depends on you, the belief that can trigger the scare. Thank you for coming."
"I'll see you in two months."
"If I see you."
"I'm sure you will, because I'm getting more and more interested. No one has ever talked to me about these things so specifically."
"You can only talk specifically to people who listen to what I say and want to understand. Otherwise they will understand what they want to understand and what serves their purposes."
Lesson | 4 | lecke
"It was just the two of us."
"The musician in me wants to play in small clubs anyway, not arenas. But it's also easier for me to ask you why you're here."
"I have a premonition and he's impressed by what he's heard so far."
"So it's you two who are willing to do this experiment. What has happened so far has been a reverse screening and only the chosen few remain."
"You selected us by magic?"
"There was magic involved, but you chose yourselves because you are here. I put a lot of emphasis on free will, because it's only people like you who can get through the difficulties. The other thing you should know is that this is not a cult. If you feel you have too much coming, you can leave at any time."
"If we leave, what happens to us?"
"You have gone your own way so far, which has led you here. You will not stay here forever. Individual paths are like that, they often cross, sometimes they go together, and then they fork."
"You said you were going to improvise. Have you made any curriculum independently of that?"
"No. Your questions will determine it. I'm sure there are some topics you would ask questions about first."
"Before that, there's a relevant question. Why don't you have a curriculum?"
"Because the curriculum would depend on the people here. I could make one now, but I've been improvising. Problems, questions, ramifications came up and I immediately decided to use my intuition and my intelligence. If I have that, why limit it by making a curriculum? Why would I limit you by having to follow that plan?"
"Is it a chaotic thing then, with a goal at the end?"
"No. We know the goal, but how we get there is the chaotic part."
"What is the goal?"
"To get to the gateway to your inner world, from which you must go on. And here you learn how to deal with what you will find there."
"I've tried meditating, but is that really meditation?"
"That was real meditation you tried, it just may not have been in sync with your preconceptions. Most people meditate without realizing it. In front of the TV, while washing dishes, or doing other monotonous work. There are many forms of meditation, but we only have this one word for it."
"Did you know how to meditate?"
"If you really want to meditate, you have to develop the technique yourself. You can learn meditation from others, but there is no guarantee that it will be the best for you. I, for example, break the cardinal rule of meditation, which is that you are not allowed to fall asleep. I've been doing it for so long that I've developed my own technique, which I use whether I fall asleep or not. This has opened up possibilities for me that others who follow that rule don't have."
"What would be the rules of meditation?"
"The only rule of meditation is that you create it for yourself."
"So why do we need rules?"
"Because it is a world inhabited by individual consciousnesses, full of fallible interests. On the one hand, those rules seek to keep weakness away, but on the other hand, the people who made them have also put weakness into them, just on a different level and in a different sense."
"For example?"
"They built hierarchies into them."
"How to meditate? That would be the question you were wondering what would be the topic I would raise first."
"I'm an advocate of going into this slowly. First you formulate in yourself the goal that you want to meditate, it doesn't hurt to include why. So here you are actually formulating two goals that will influence each other."
"What was this other goal for you?"
"To study the spiritual world with a scientific eye and to research the question of God. And then a practical problem came in, which was to restore the world."
"Ok, I'll formulate these goals in my mind. How do I get there?"
"Somehow."
"I don't understand."
"You've given yourself an intention-goal program. Your life will be defined by it, but if at some point you succeed, you will move into higher dimensions and realize that it was already defined before this point. Maybe the intuition you were referring to is rooted in the fact that you succeeded, but you were thinking that you could have succeeded even better if you had made different choices in the past and you are here now. That is, you have managed to make a different choice."
"I'm getting confused."
"You have to prepare your mind for meditation. Above all, it is advisable to be flexible with time, because it is only in 3D a past-present-future causal straight line."
"How can I prepare my brain for this?"
"Watch time travel movies."
"Can you give me an example of flexible time management?"
"From a higher dimensional perspective, time is not at all as simple as we perceive it. But that would be a later material, remind me about it. What is interesting for us now is that the cause of most things is not in the past, but in the future. When a higher dimensional effect hits the timeline, it becomes like tapping on a stretched out string and seeing the ripple it creates. These waves ripple in two directions, past and future. If you react to these ripples, you will be sucked into an effect that I have called T0, which corresponds in time to the point where the tapping occurred."
"Ordinary people who don't react to these waves, what do they say?"
"Coincidence or fate."
"And those who do react to it?"
"Since they live in 3D and have rational hemispheres, there must be some explanation. So for them, the hologram creates a second cause, which they see as the only cause and makes these changes in the timeline meaningful. This can be an experience that makes it understandable to everyone why one turns to spirituality. The real reason is still in the future, which is unknown to us, so we can only feel this pull, mainly in the form of intuition, which pulls us towards something we are looking for."
"How can this be done with a scientific eye?"
"The scientific approach is about understanding something. But the spiritual world is the realm of the other hemisphere, where it's not expertise and knowledge that counts, but loyalty and faith. From that perspective, what I do is darkness itself and quite satanic. From the rational brain, however, these adjectives fit the other. The best position is to be in the middle on the border, but then both sides see you as the enemy, which you get used to after a while. However, it is only from here that you should rise."
"What happens to those who do not rise from the middle?"
"They become part of one side's hierarchy."
"No hierarchy in the middle?"
"In the middle, you either don't feel like you belong to either side and think of the others as individuals, or you feel like you belong to both at the top of their hierarchies."
"Which are you?"
"When I'm not on task, I'm the first, when I am, I'm the second."
"Are you accepted at these peaks?"
"If I were accepted, I wouldn't have to fight all the time. But this match is not over yet. Because I'm both below them in 3D as a human and above them in the form of a returning consciousness, it's difficult to move forward because there's never been a precedent or template for this. It is never easy to fight from the bottom up, but I will break through them sooner or later, because they only understand the language of force."
"Can they attack you?"
"It's not easy, because if they're just a little bit wrong in time, it can be a year or even a decade slippage. In my mind, the belief that these creatures are omniscient, advanced and superior beings has long since been disproved. Perhaps that's why they expect everyone to bow down before them. Which is not difficult if spirituality is their home turf."
"So how did it work for you?"
"We've seen it before, when an underdog team wins at the home of the favorite. We've even seen the home crowd cheering for them in that game."
"So you're saying that if I want to meditate, I should let myself go with the flow and then one day I'll realise I can meditate?"
"Actually, yes. Following your own mental start-goal program."
"What's that like?"
"Listening to your intuition and staying on the beam you set for yourself."
"See? Now that's esoteric education."
"If that's what it is for you, I won't argue.""What if I want to start meditating consciously?"
"Then you have to give up comfort."
"What do you mean by that?"
"You have to face the fact that you can only do it, not pretend to do it. No TV, no internet, no partying, no friends, no nothing, just this. But it's a way to gain years. The big question is, don't you need those years to have the life experience and maturity? The danger of this, however, is that it makes it easier to get a good job and easier to get married, not to mention sex, which can even destroy your energy system."
"Why?"
"Sex equals direct energy charge, and at a very high bandwidth. You can become a victim of bondage or occupation. Which of course can be cleared later in meditation over a period of years, but you have to get there. But you can also get lucky, and get access to a lot of valuable energy. I'd say listen to your instincts, it's just a question of whether you're overwhelmed by the sight or the allure. It's better to avoid such things, but it's also important to be a mentally healthy person who meditates and is not driven by distortions from repression. So it's not easy, but not impossible, to find the ideal scale and proportions."
"How did it work for you?"
"That's a good question, because it comes up again that I can have an opinion about it in the present, but the picture is very different in the future. Because it is necessary to have such experiences, especially in this civilisation where the relationship issue is unleashed. I started dating later than the average man, because although I was a late bloomer, I can tell you today that I am not the 'real man' either. I've had girlfriends I've dated in the classic sense, I've had shorter adventures, I've tried hookers and there were times when I concentrated on getting to know women."
"Are you only interested in women?"
"Yes. I'm only interested in women, but I have to add that I've never been interested in them too much. The fact that I have Cancer in Aquarius as my Ascendant was very useful for meditation, but it caused a lot of complications before. For my Aquarian self, the period when I was trying to conform to social expectations was difficult, because courting, for example, was one of the most unpleasant experiences of my life. Aquarius is basically honest, but in courtship you have to lie. On the one hand, to get what you want, and on the other hand, women want you to lie. It's no accident that I say that honesty always works against women."
"Why should courtship be unpleasant?"
"Anyone who truly lives according to the spirit of equality is not comfortable in situations where the other party is not able to adapt this spirit immediately. Women are, after all, basically intuitive beings, so they are more susceptible to heart-occupation and have been frequently used against me from above. They have a kind of template where the goal is to stabilise the position, so everything is perfect at the beginning and then things start to change. Women are strong in spiritual empowerment and they also have a big advantage in being able to focus on several things at once. Men can only really pay attention to one thing, but the depth of it is higher than women. One of the character patterns of collective hierarchies is that women are less prone to chivalry and can do things out of resentment that a man would not. The difference is perhaps best captured by sport, where men are tough on each other and women are rough."
"What is the difference between men and women?"
"Men are rational beings but make emotional decisions, women are emotional beings but make rational decisions. If you know that, you have the key to people."
"What kind of woman is right for you?"
"The problem with that is that because of my level of consciousness, there is no woman who could be a partner in that role, but it's the other way round, I wouldn't be able to meet her expectations either."
"Why wouldn't it?"
"Because life is boring next to a meditating person. Moreover, her task would be to manage the world around my physical body, while at the same time exuding and ensuring maximum calm. A quarrel, for example, would be like being shot at at close range. I'm sure there are women who could do that, but then there is when I shift my consciousness position in a way that she cannot follow. What happens then, from my observations, is that I become insignificant in everyone else's eyes. So much so that I can be out of their thoughts and even forgotten completely. When my consciousness returns to the space perceived by others, I reappear in their thoughts and my importance increases. This can only be done in a couple relationship if the other person accepts this supportive role, which they maintain even when the other person's consciousness disappears. This is not easy even in peaceful mode, and in my case you must have the gifts and qualities to resist the effects of the occupiers."
"What are these influences?"
"They go to the weak points, which for most people is either grievance or money. If the importance of money is not in place in your mind, you can open up to a financial loss very easily and then the occupier can access you in a wider band. This is hard to spot because you perceive the occupier as yourself and you have to be very sensible to spot that it is not you. Offence is another common practice that is very easy to achieve by being rude. If they are done at the level of politics, they can be used for mass occupation, especially if they have the media in their hands. In such occupations, the goal is to throw you off your balance, which opens the door to the occupiers. For one to embark on such a path, one has to undergo such preparation, which cannot be taught, but can only be achieved by experiencing it in daily life through personality development."
"What does this level of consciousness mean in practice?"
"The deeper your level of consciousness, the further away you are from the physical world and from what the average person considers normal. But because you are at home alone, this is not a problem for you, but when you go out in public, you have to learn the role of a normal person. Which if you fail, you'll have the effect of an autistic person, because you'll only focus a fraction of your attention on the outside world. I had to develop what I call waking trance in this European context, otherwise deep trance meditation would only be feasible in Tibet in a catatonic state lasting months/years. It got so good at the end that it is now at the level of naturalness. See, you don't even notice any of this."
"I would come back to, if I give up my comfort, how can I bring myself to get to conscious meditation quickly?"
"In the beginning, boredom will hurt you because your goal is to look into your inner world, which would require you to turn away from the outer completely. But until that opens up to you, there will be nothing outside and nothing inside. In order not to go mad into this, it is advisable to spend this time in a useful way, which will accelerate this journey for you, and this will be nothing other than reprogramming yourself."
"From what and for what?"
"Daily life in the outside world is very fast. In it you are affected in all areas of life by influences that you don't even know are slowly and imperceptibly reprogramming you. This is the case with films, where you have to embrace the truth of the creators in order to follow the story. For example, that the Nazis are evil, the Arabs are terrorists, who are otherwise seen as freedom fighters in Muslim areas. Who, when watching an American film like this, can see the human side of Americans and must accept, at least conditionally, that they are the good guys, otherwise there is confusion in interpreting the film. It also means that all films, books and advertisements are propaganda, slowly reshaping people who don't realise they have been reprogrammed and are taking on patterns that are not for their own purposes."
"But the Nazis are evil, aren't they?"
"Ask their wives, their children and their neighbours. Sure, they did terrible things, but there are still perspectives where much would make sense if they were not pushed into oblivion. If you believe only one side's truth to be the whole truth, you will only take one side's view as your own. Yet the other side has committed and continues to commit atrocities. In order to meditate usefully, you must be able to see things objectively even if you know things about yourself that are unpleasant and unfavourable to you."
"This is not easy."
"That's why I say it takes ten years or so to mature. By the way, I am sure that I am becoming a fascist in the eyes of many people, although this was just an example that was easy to understand, but which is easy to understand in terms of what you want to understand. I am not any ...ist, or any ...ist fits me, for one who sees the rainbow does not have to choose a colour for himself."
"What do you think about homosexuality?"
"That's one of the things that would be outrageous, if I could be outraged at such things, that such symbols are appropriated by some. Of course, I understand that it symbolises diversity, but if you think about it, the people who are extremely far removed from that are the very people for whom the rainbow has now become their symbol. Just as the hexagram has been appropriated by a marketing expert called David, and I could go on. Should I name the pentagram after myself?"
"Do I have to reprogram myself to get rid of them? But reprogram myself for what and how?"
"I bet that when you sit still, a tremor appears in your leg."
"Yes, it does."
"Now this tremor is a signal to you that something is wrong with your values. That's because you have a very different view of many things at the bottom than you do at the surface, which means you are a person who has been changed by society and the media. Since you are sitting there staring at the four walls anyway, because your inner world won't let you in, start to take the issues one by one, what you really think about and start to come to an agreement with yourself. What is important to you and what is not. Why is it important to you and are these things really important to you. After a while you will realise that these are actually elements of your own values. What you should be aware of is that it is very easy to fool yourself here, but in this case your convictions will not get you down if you are not honest. As you move from topic to topic, this shaking in your legs will diminish and you may reach a state of complete calm by the end. Although this quick version can take months, even years, you will eventually manage to stop the world. The world will still be just as fast, but your own perception will shift to a different time scale, in which you will notice every little sign. In fact, these two things are necessary to achieve the ideal meditation tempo."
"Some people are initiated by a master and then they can meditate."
"As I said, I'm not a master and I don't do that unless it's necessary. But then no one gets away with doing meaningful work with themselves, because such things can come and go as they come. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away. But if you work for it yourself, it remains yours."
"That was a lot of information for me."
"I can see your brain is starting to freak out. Come back in two months if you don't feel it's too much for you. Everybody thinks it's easy and cool, but we haven't even really started yet."
Lesson | 5 | lecke
"Hello."
"Hi, sorry, I would have gone, but my wife wouldn't let me."
"Ask her who she married. The one who would've been happy to come, or the one who's about to become uninteresting?"
"Okay, bye."
"Just one more question. What did she refer to?"
"That you're a lunatic who's just trying to get me in trouble."
"That's a better case."
"Yeah, and my buddy doesn't want to go alone."
"Doesn't want to, or doesn't dare?"
"Good question. Bye."
"Bye."
